Haha, I think putting up a story of my history, of what I had experienced before.
I think for this time, I want to talk about my past that explains my introvert behavior.
For many of you this fact may not be known, but I am raised in my primary school days with a single parent (my dad), since my mom died of cancer last 12 years. So I have been living with single parent of like almost 7 years before my dad remarried with my stepmother that brings 3 of my sisters. I am raised in the environment with lots of girls, that's why when I came to Singapore for the first time, entering a boys school, I really feel left out, cause I really don't have many good friends that are guys. It's a tough start for me.
I have a super good friend, as like my older brother (He is 6 years older than me!), before I went to Singapore, he is diagnosed with a cancer in his stomach. 1 month before I went to Singapore to study, he gone through his fourth stage of cancer. Doctors predict that his life can only extend to the first January 2008. I turned to be a super emo person at that point of time. I am thinking whether cancer will take precious people around me away from me. I prayed for him everyday, drying my tears off my eyes.
He is the first best friend I ever had. Since in my lower secondary school days, my friends do not really care. I enter a school full of rich people. Super frustrating, they all have their gang and they only think of me as a helper to their school work (I am really sorry if it is not, but I really think that way at that time). So I feel like my trust is betrayed after some time, and since then, I become introvert, especially to guys.
You all may not know it, but when I first come here, I am always afraid of being alone. I don't really talk to anyone about this though. My first group of friends are the Surabayans that come to Singapore like Steven, Clifford, and Liauw. This expands as I get to know those from Bandung since we go on an outing together. I get to know many people. The first person I get close to is Lucky. Oh, then I get to know Heizel and Sunson as my classmates.
God really brings me here to teach me many things, and one of the things I learned is to make friends with many people. My relationship with friends stays at one of my top values in life. I really thanked God that He brings me here. I get to know many wonderful people and fun people.
On the last note I want to say thanks to:
those who hated me, you have enlarged my heart
those who loved me, you have make my life fun and bright
those who support me, you have definitely changed my life
those who try to bring me down, you have teach me to be stronger
those who envy and jealous to me, you have give me great self esteem
those who compliments me, you have given me confidence
those whom I shared my life story with, you have definitely become one of my good friends
God, for You have shown me Your great plan over the years
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